Yet I am Squeezing

Matt Redman wrote a song a few years ago called “The Heart of Worship.” It became well-known in contemporary Christian music and the story behind it became widely circulated, as well.

Matt was a worship leader at a large church on the cutting edge of presentation and modern interpretation of Eternal worship. He and the pastors he worked with realized that the presentation had inadvertently taken a primary position ahead of the One who was being worshipped. The lights, amps, etc. became more important than Jesus. They stripped it all down and stepped away from what they knew as worship to examine their hearts and start from scratch.

I’m not proud to say that I’ve been mindful to the point of distraction about worship in the new church God is starting. In fact, I lost sleep over it last night. I’m struggling.

I come from mega-churches where the worship is exceptional. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that and we have enjoyed the benefit of an environment that prepares hearts to receive and ushers in the presence of God. That’s not the only way, though.

I’m not at a resolution to this internal dilemma yet. How much needs to be managed in creating an atmosphere of worship vs. how much do we just start from scratch and let God do what God decides to do? Even if we “nail” the presentation, is that the deal?

Like all things, it’s a heart condition and I’m not sure that mine is right, yet. As much as I say that I want to simply respond to what God is doing, is that really true? Do I really trust Him with the whole deal? I never wanted this to be about me, yet I am squeezing.

From Matt Redman’s song . . .

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus
I’m sorry Lord for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
It’s all about You Jesus

2 thoughts on “Yet I am Squeezing

  1. Scott, bless you for being vulnerable and sharing your heart in this area. I, too, feel that so often the One we worship has to take a back pew because man has a wrong perspective or heart. Authentic worship comes from within our souls and the decorations around us, be it sound systems, lights, dance or music, can become nothing more than distractions that provide a feel good feeling, but doesn’t draw the presence of almighty God into our assembly.

  2. Good word Scott.
    Even for as off key as I sing, I have felt the presence of God in a mighty way when I am all alone driving in my car singing at the top of my lungs. Also many times I am not even singing the correct words to the song I am attempting to remember. God doesn’t seem to mind as His presence fills my car and He speaks to me as only He can. He is a gracious and loving father that has the ability to see our hearts and meet us where we are. Keep on being real with Him and He will surely be real with us. It truly is All About Him. Blessings.

    Enjoy Life.

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